letter to my unborn child part 1

Im writing this letter to my unborn child
just incase i dont make it to the other side of this wild
world, these are just a few of the thoughts that ive compiled
thru the good times, bad times, worse times, and every time inbetween filed
kept my head up thru it all and i still smiled
if you can make it thru hell, then its all worthwhile
along the road you'll meet good people, bad people and some that are just vile
some that are so Hostile, but even when your all alone with your phone and dont have nobody to dial, just keep your head up, learn to be versatile, dont let anybody ever tell you, you dont deserve to smile, be happy, be thankful for what you've got, whether or not you've got a lot. home is where you make it so dont run away from your problems, stay focused on your goals, grin and take it until you make it, dont let it break you down, things get bad everywhere in every town, when its rainin down hail and you think you might drown, dont frown, your bound to make it around the bad times. what ive learned.... is after the fire comes the rain, to wash away the pain, at night and the next day the sun will shine so bright, and show you the light, the right path, isnt always the easiest, infact it never is, thats usually the sleaziest, when i look back and reminisce on the past times, the fast times, the have a blast times, smoking and drinking mass amounts times, they werent worth nothing, no good memories, not even one thing.... the funny thing is, i was always smiling, dialing, the devils number hes not answer and redialing, filing these times in the category of fun, lookin back i wish i would have done, less drugs, less fake hugs, and found the real love, but that wasnt in her plan up above..........

jesus, muhammad, the pope, and the easter bunny

I was Born 23 years ago, this is dedicated to all the people i know
all the people i once knew, the ones i still talk to and plus all the rest of you
those i used to love and the ones i still do
to all the love that disintegrated, dissolved, or for whatever reason may be just plain disapeered
this is for all my people whether or not your still here
i dont always express things in a way thats crystal clear, im often vague, keep to myself, except when im drinkin beer, then we get too blunt and say things that nobody wants to hear
the truth hurts and nobody likes to go thru pain
we'd all rather just like to live in a world thats boring and plain
and i apologize if i put thoughts in your head that make you feel insane
but its my duty to talk about the way things are, and the way i think they oughta be
you cant float thru life with your eyes closed, youv'e gotta open them if you really want to see
you gotta be
just a little bit zany, if your thinking this world aint just a little bit crazy
and mainly, i just try to make you open your eyes, its not my job to apologize for all of the lies
i just point out the obvious ones, you gotta think for yourself,
its up to you to realize
the TRUTH,
wrong from right, good from bad, you have to determine for yourself the right path, and know when to pass up on the fads, and while you probably wont find me sitting in a steeple on sunday, it doesnt mean that i cant see the light at the end of the day, ive seen the light at the end of the tunnel, were swirling down a pathway to destruction like were getting sucked thru a funnel, gods been pummelled, in our society, so many are too drunk or high to see, the lies, the truth that they hide from me, but we float on so blindly, kindly i say, its time for a change
and im not talkin about jesus, muhammed, the pope, or the easter bunny, you dont need a church to pray for forgiveness dummy
god is inside you, and shes always been there, she'll never abandon you even when you walked away and thought you left her there. you've got to be careful though, cause the devils there too, its up to you, to choose the right path, which ever way, that leads you, you have to block the lies that the devils feed you, they try to speed you, to the quick route, out, the door, you forgot what you were about, standing stout, you thoght, until your crying as you pout, the hard ways the right way thats no doubt. im thru venting now so ill leave it at that

She Said.....

void of inspiration
wont you give my mind frustration
any kind of new sensation???

ill be your temptation,
protect you from the torment your facin,
the evil will be erasen
maybe just visitation
and g brings annihilation,
no celebration just termination

i need something
even evils more than nothin
all the normal makes me crazy
turns creative thoughts to lazy

how swiftly he can switch today
jeckel changes and the witches run away
you say your bored and in need of something new,
i say check your eyesight cause only you
can turn the skys from black to blue
its up to you,
you have to keep moving if you want to make it through

and she says "my your quick today"

ill be the bad guy if you need someone to blame
for all your misfortune and pain
myzery and happiness are the same
its a shame but if you want it then hell is what i can bring

and still he remains his own best friend,
for vanity is grasping for the wind

his own best friend,
because most just pretend,
the only one on whom he can depend
or rely upon is i, so until the end
my best friend is i

so proud to walk the earth alone
while god was with him all along,
credit lost where credits due,
cause without him
there is no you

there was only one set of footprints in the sand,
i asked god why she wasnt holding my hand,
turns out she was carrying
me across these rough lands,
without her i would have surely sank in the quicksand